I have failed once again.
My sins have been revealed.
I have fallen so far in this time,
I fear I cannot be healed.
I used to blame others for my misery,
But this time I broke my own heart.
I am left vulnerable and exposed,
And virtually torn apart.
There is no recognition when I look in the mirror.
I have become just another stranger.
Nothing is left of the me from before,
All that is left is tears, sadness, and anger.
I am left twisted and broken,
With no end in sight.
Hope feels like a hopeless cause,
So I condemn myself to this dayless night.
I do not deserve to be happy again,
I feel such guilt when I smile.
This misery is my pennance,
And I am holding my own trial.